I was at the time, and in truth still am today, a girl who tries to anchor herself in the arm of a man; a girl of many fears, most of them are irrational, a girl afflicted with a syndrome particular to people who shirk the art of living purposefully, focusing all their energy instead on things they can never solve or understand, things like the sky and the spinning of the planet.
My cure for this syndrome was fleeting, incanescent love, the kind of love where you never want to get out from bed, where you roll together under cotton sheets, where he enters your thoughts before you fall asleep and is still there when you awake, where you feels that the whole universe is yours and his alone, where you find the greatest happiness is being with him.....
I write this not simply to illuminate certain truths about me, although it serve that purpose as well, but i just wanna convinced myself that although i can never find THE man, i am still me...
 | atlantisian wrote on Jan 21, '05 craziivan said  Oh dnt worry, u will find THE manThough obviously he wont be as hot or as hunky as me. Cheers  okokok... you are the hunkiest, manniest man in the whole universe.. (i really do know there are no such words, just bear with me) anyway, i think your "too eager to commitment" thing is still acceptable, at least you never give up on trusting and believing in a relationship. |
 | banana2 wrote on Jan 21, '05 why some people still fall in love even it hurts? why some people like rose even it comes with torns? i think there must be something that makes people to be attached to those things. people is searching for beauty in this world, the beauty of life, i presume. ok, after a long intro which i also don't know what i am talking about : ), hope u enjoy the feeling of loving somebody, although the love you are giving out might not be repay with love, i think the process of loving one person is wonderful. it is just a bit not perfect that the person you love does not have the same feeling towards you. |
| atlantisian wrote on Jan 21, '05 banana2 said why some people still fall in love even it hurts? why some people like rose even it comes with torns? i think there must be something that makes people to be attached to those things. people is searching for beauty in this world, the beauty of life, i presume.ok, after a long intro which i also don't know what i am talking about : ), hope u enjoy the feeling of loving somebody, although the love you are giving out might not be repay with love, i think the process of loving one person is wonderful. it is just a bit not perfect that the person you love does not have the same feeling towards you. love makes your heart ache at his presence; love also makes your heart soars at his sight, love makes you felt fragile, love also strengthen you in a way that you can never understand; love brings hurts and pains, love also brings you joy and satisfaction... i guess, love is still the greatest thing of all. |
 | pohmui wrote on Jan 21, '05 atlantisian said love makes your heart ache at his presence; love also makes your heart soars at his sight, love makes you felt fragile, love also strengthen you in a way that you can never understand; love brings hurts and pains, love also brings you joy and satisfaction... i guess, love is still the greatest thing of all. Love is one meaningful things to say. Love can be so broad, it can be so specific. Love is just undescribable... |
 | ahlok2003 wrote on Jan 20, '05, edited on Jan 20, '05 first..i love the song is playing....just make i feel i'm the one describe in the song..." i love u too much to make ..... fly away"....i just love this phrase... then, as a guy(not trypical) here..what can i say..hm...actaully guys hardly can understand gals..really. |
 | vrdacosta wrote on Jan 20, '05, edited on Jan 20, '05 You say: "...the failure of my previous relationship has made me realized about one thing. i know this may sound stupid, but, i think i had a problem with commitment, and perhaps even intimacy..."!!! I say this is not a specific problem of yours or even a fatality...; each of us could have a bad loving experience!!! You have to be more self-reliance...!!! |
 | lyonlionel wrote on Jan 20, '05 Not everyone can commit themselves. Everyone has their own specific reasons. Figure and point it out and then attempt to work on it. Not easy I would say but at least try. Take care. |
| pohmui wrote on Jan 20, '05 if someone is yours, he will always be yours, no matter what. there will always someone out there, whether we meet or not, he is there. this is what i always believe, and i still believe in it. i do not worry of being alone, single.. i have what i believe to make me through the difficult times. the past, for me is still haunting me, for sure, but without a past, i had learn nothing. learn from it, and get a life. |
| atlantisian wrote on Jan 20, '05, edited on Jan 20, '05 pohmui said if someone is yours, he will always be yours, no matter what. there will always someone out there, whether we meet or not, he is there.this is what i always believe, and i still believe in it. i do not worry of being alone, single.. i have what i believe to make me through the difficult times. the past, for me is still haunting me, for sure, but without a past, i had learn nothing. learn from it, and get a life. well, i think this is something regarding the soulmate stuff right? at that time, i really think that he is the one,the one that meant for me and only for me, when the dreams broken, it's hard for me to believe that i'm willing to go through the whole mess and struggle again... anyway, recomend an article by my housemate regarding the soulmate topic, click on it if you are interested. The Difference between chance and choice |
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