Scrambled

I need the concrete, I need applications.

i really wanna do something to solve the passport problem that i'm facing now, and i know flying back to sarawak seems to be the only solution to the whole thing, but there must be some altenatives to this...

keep thinking....

but my mind wonders to elsewhere....

*sitting with contradictions
*fissure of personality
*need for unity in self [I have no idea why I wrote this list. but i think i have the capability of having diverging, fleeting thoughts]

I need the concrete, I need applications. Perhaps this is just a crutch, perhaps its a barrier to faith. ( i still dunno why i wrote this.)