pissed

I'd like to be spiritual and mystical but I need the concrete and I need applications. I recently encountered with an irritating guy that talk craps and keep boosting how well he will handle the situation compares to the person that screw up the thing. this is funny, how would he know exactly what to do even though he never face that kind of problem before, i really wondered if he was some young collegiate who hadn't lived much life nor suffered much pain. i mean if everything so clear cut and easy, then i dunno what kind of life that i'm living now, hell maybe...

i'm not saying that being confident is not good, but when you really never experienced it before, dont assume you know hows it feel. Nothing is as easy as how it appearence look like, ( but then ironically nothing is as difficult as what you think it is.) you can say all those struggle that i am having now is like swapping a fly or 'kacang only' (i hate it when you said the word). But tell you what, its not even 0.00001% near to what reality is all about, all the shit you gave me like "dont care what your family thinks, do it, and tell them later, they have to accept it when it already happens" or "be independent, you cannot act like chicken all the time" are all shit! and to the hell with the "if i were you.....", you can never be me, so just stop assumming that if you go through what i have went through...

anyway, i regret talk to you about the whole thing in the first place, i rather talk to wall then talk to you again....