Jamming with some old mates last night, they used to be my praise and worship team mates and closest buddies back on those secondary school dayz…. I remember how we used to spend countless hours in the church, practiced long hours without knowing tired, sang our hearts out and doing acapella on every single songs that we can think of.
Have this mixed feeling when I’ve been told to lead praise and worship on Chinese new year mass, it’s really great to refresh those memories, enjoying each other company just like those old days and at the same time serve the LOrd, but leading Chinese new year songs ?!? it has been ages since the last time I sang THOSE songs, it’s irksome…. but surprisingly, it turn out to be quite fun, well, of course after we did some modification to the songs.^.^
Well, It’s very weird that every time we hang out, the most common question I’ve been asked is “got boyfriend already?” It sort of become a custom. Most of the time I just teased them back or simply asking them why don’t we coupled up then, well, this usually able to shut them up… but last night, the weird thing is we did dwell further into it and I really had a great conversion regarding the topic with one of my brother.
We talked about tons of thing, about soul mate, about the heart breaking moment and the joy of finding the right one… He had this unique parable to describe ‘how to handle relationship’ which really intrigues me. He said that relationship is like a pendulum where we will swing to both ends. Sometimes we will be very happy and sometimes we will be very sad. The happier we are the sadder we will be. Happy times will be short and sad times will be longer. So the higher we go the lower we drop. That is why we should keep our life at equilibrium and not be too extreme about any feelings so that we will not be too hurt. Eventually, the equanimity gives us poise and serenity in the very face of adversity.
At first I thought that the theory is really passive, it sort of restraining one’s emotion and capacity to enjoy things in their life. I mean why suppressing yourself from savoring the maximum happiness? But when I further think about this, maybe he is right, When we had intense feeling of happiness and sadness, we will always living in a rollercoaster-like life, went so high at this moment without knowing what awaits you at the next, unpredictable 360 degrees turn over? Breathtaking 90 degree drop? I don’t think my heart can withstand such emotional turmoil without having a heart attack.
I have a friend which is exactly the type, see her in and out of a few relationship, falling blindly in love, always in a very dramatic emotion, overwhelming and anxiety at the same time, and in the end, hurt herself badly…Would I allowed myself falling into such dilemma? crazily falling in love, head over hells, with no rationale left behind? It really makes me wonder…
Well, do you dare?
Have this mixed feeling when I’ve been told to lead praise and worship on Chinese new year mass, it’s really great to refresh those memories, enjoying each other company just like those old days and at the same time serve the LOrd, but leading Chinese new year songs ?!? it has been ages since the last time I sang THOSE songs, it’s irksome…. but surprisingly, it turn out to be quite fun, well, of course after we did some modification to the songs.^.^
Well, It’s very weird that every time we hang out, the most common question I’ve been asked is “got boyfriend already?” It sort of become a custom. Most of the time I just teased them back or simply asking them why don’t we coupled up then, well, this usually able to shut them up… but last night, the weird thing is we did dwell further into it and I really had a great conversion regarding the topic with one of my brother.
We talked about tons of thing, about soul mate, about the heart breaking moment and the joy of finding the right one… He had this unique parable to describe ‘how to handle relationship’ which really intrigues me. He said that relationship is like a pendulum where we will swing to both ends. Sometimes we will be very happy and sometimes we will be very sad. The happier we are the sadder we will be. Happy times will be short and sad times will be longer. So the higher we go the lower we drop. That is why we should keep our life at equilibrium and not be too extreme about any feelings so that we will not be too hurt. Eventually, the equanimity gives us poise and serenity in the very face of adversity.
At first I thought that the theory is really passive, it sort of restraining one’s emotion and capacity to enjoy things in their life. I mean why suppressing yourself from savoring the maximum happiness? But when I further think about this, maybe he is right, When we had intense feeling of happiness and sadness, we will always living in a rollercoaster-like life, went so high at this moment without knowing what awaits you at the next, unpredictable 360 degrees turn over? Breathtaking 90 degree drop? I don’t think my heart can withstand such emotional turmoil without having a heart attack.
I have a friend which is exactly the type, see her in and out of a few relationship, falling blindly in love, always in a very dramatic emotion, overwhelming and anxiety at the same time, and in the end, hurt herself badly…Would I allowed myself falling into such dilemma? crazily falling in love, head over hells, with no rationale left behind? It really makes me wonder…
Well, do you dare?
 | atlantisian wrote on Feb 15, '05 craziivan said  Why not?If God meant the highest form of life on earth to be cowards he'd have stopped after he created chickens.  hei, what's the problem about being a 'chick'?? i don't mind being one, hehe... |
 | eugenetwj wrote on Feb 16, '05 No problem with that. Not unless you'll end up growing up into a cock |
 | andytiong wrote on Feb 12, '05 I am flattered to see you guys on the stage again . How i wish to be with all of you once more . That's wat i feel each single time when i am getting myself back to Kuching . I like the the way we praise to the lord , the way we sang his words to fill up the atmosphere. The dignity we have after been booing .. the stronghold to learn from the mistakes me made in each single chord. The particular mistake which we on and on repeating .. gosh wat a lovely experience. Go on my sis ... |
| atlantisian wrote on Feb 15, '05 andytiong said I am flattered to see you guys on the stage again . How i wish to be with all of you once more . That's wat i feel each single time when i am getting myself back to Kuching . I like the the way we praise to the lord , the way we sang his words to fill up the atmosphere. The dignity we have after been booing .. the stronghold to learn from the mistakes me made in each single chord. The particular mistake which we on and on repeating .. gosh wat a lovely experience. Go on my sis ... miss you too.. my bro has been grumbling a lot for playing bass every week, tuitoring him a bit when you come back, k? |
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