The end

have you ever felt that you are completely devastatingly dissapointed by someone that holds a place in your heart?

everytime you told yourself, its only human that he felt and acted in that way, and everytime you told yourself to have more patience, and everytime you try to find a sensible excuse to make yourself believe that the person had a reason for acting that way, but again and again the person violated and stomped on your trust with no mercy.

'i dont trust that she is the one that can help me from drowing.'

initially, you felt shocked and disbelief. how can a dear friend of yours didnt have any trust in you at all. Then the evil one came and sowed the seed of distrust and suspiscious in your heart, you started to hold back your heart, you started to distant yourself, you started to talk less and without realizing, you become a total stranger to the person.

Once in a while, you felt guilty.

is it alright if i'm treating him like a total stranger? you keep asking yourself.

is this the end of the precious relationship that once i'm treasure so much? you keep asking yourself.

were did all those great times and tears we shared together dissapeared? you keep asking yourself.

yet, silence is the only answer that you get.

which can cuts the deepest?

The sarcastic grin that sends shivers to your spine?

The emotionless cold face that makes you wanna turn away?

That ain't called pain.

The cruel reality of the end of the friendship is something that hurts you so much that you wanna make the person feels that same intensity of pain too.

yeah, you are not a life savior, you cant help him from drowning. cuz you are just a friend.

But now, the friend is dead.

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delete reply lyonlionel wrote on Jan 31, '06, edited on Jan 31, '06 It is one's choice to choose one's own path no matter how clear we can foresee what is to come and no matter how hard we rally to help. I'm sorry. Be well soon.

delete reply nightscamp wrote on Jan 31, '06 I know exactly how you feel Susan... My 'friend' put me through the same thing bringing me now facing the same decision, that it's best I walk away than drowning myself trying to save someone who doesn't believe and doesn't want to give me that chance to even save him. Instead he wants the person who drowned him in the first place. Our death is not worth holding on to strands of a friendship which no longer exists.

delete reply ahlok2003 wrote on Feb 2, '06 "have you ever felt that you are completely devastatingly dissapointed by someone that holds a place in your heart" yes. it hurt and forgive and forget.

delete reply eugenetwj wrote on Feb 2, '06 Whats going on? Im sure there are many ways to look at things. Cool down and think back. Is what happened worth ending a once valuable friendship? Really? Think of those times you had together, surely you know that person well enough to expect such a reaction. She must have her reasons, and you two must talk nicely before you can understand and end the friendship properly. Consider carefully. If you must take a step back then try to do it, its in your heart that you are humbler.

delete reply pohmui wrote on Feb 2, '06 Drowning? erm... he? she? I think both of you must have gotten some misunderstanding.. or maybe he or she doesn't mean that way? Let us calm down and step back to see the whole thing as one whole picture..