Everyone is getting married

Wedding bell is ringing.... here, there and everywhere

when i say everyone, i do mean EVERYONE!
Many of my ex classmate, coursemate, friends, friend's sister (you name it) are getting married soon. In fact, my best buddy during my secondary school days gonna tie the knot in coming October. It so funny that those days we used to talk about who we admired and those stupid crush. And now.... look at her, she is walking down the isle and settling down with the man of her life.

Anyway, my sister is getting married too (Now you know where this post coming from..), she has been preparing for her wedding in November for quite some times now. Being the only sister she has, she had conveniently asking me to window shopping for her for LIST of stuffs from wedding shoes to ring pillow. Well, the only problem is that she is fussy, well, cant blame her, this is THE day of her life, of course everything need to be at its perfect. Therefore, i need to go to Multiple malls for Multiple times to accomplish the task.

One thing which i learn for the whole process is:

Getting married is bloody EXPENSIVE!

Simple things like basket for the flower girl at LL can cost up to RM50++, and the funny thing is, i can copycat the whole thing with some basket from pasar malam and sew it with some lace. I bought a nice ring pillow from Memory lane (see picture), which for me is quite simple yet cute, and the price is reasonable (less than RM30). However, my sister being herself, said that there is not enough of lace -_-'' .Anyway,the person who suffered the most is not me, but my dear, cuz he has to accompany me to do all these shopping. And his final conclusion after these whole process is:

"Can we elope next time?"

存在

Do you believe in afterlife?
Do you believe in the existence of soul or spirit as our true ‘being’ instead of the fleshly body?
Do you believe that this body we have will passed away one day, but the ‘being’ will stays forever?

Bible has an interesting analogy of describing our body as the tent or clothes
The day our physical body dies, we will be unclothed, we will leave the tent which our 'being' housed
For sure, our ‘being’ doesn’t aged like our physical body rotten as we getting older
If our being is everlasting, I wonder is that is a blessing or a curse
What kind of everlasting life we will live?
And do we have any control over that?
When we leave this tent, what are the things from this world which we can bring to after life?
Is our days on earth has any significance towards our everlasting destination?

I would say yes.
I don’t know do we forget all the memories we had on earth the day our spirit leaves our body
But I ‘m sure that there is a meaning behind the fact that our life start in this earth
The fact that we were born into this world in the form of flesh for 70-80 years
And that things which we did in this earth will somehow determine how our life will be in this everlasting
Our the quality of life which we led in this world will be a mirror image of the life of the afterlife

So, what is your 'being' means to you?
Do we treasure our body, the clothes more than our 'being'?
We thought about what to feed to our body everyday
How to keep this body in shape, to stay young and healthy
But what is the point of keeping this clothes on if the clothes is old and torn now
Why are we resenting the idea of shedding this clothes?
The day when we shed our clothes, will we feel ashamed like Adam and Eve, covering themselves with leaves, hiding in the bushes
We came naked when we are born into this world,
with no title, no assets, and certainly no fancy clothes
Why are we ashamed if we are stark naked in front of the almighty God

"Being" is the qualities constituting one that exists; the essence
However i like my own chinese definition better~存在

你的存在在于什么？
很喜欢梁静如崇拜里的一句歌词
“我的存在在你的存在”

你呢？

Open for visit

i am getting older... that's a fact which i can no longer deny.
Being 25 is not as sweet as the days when we used to be forever 18.
At the age of mid 20s, another day passed by reminds you that you are marching a step closer to the middle age group, a.k.a the aunties group.

i am not sure why such a thought came to me suddenly, but i guess having that kind of thought itself proved that i am getting older.
It amused me to think back those youthful days...
Wondering how to look more mature, having dreams of being an independent career women living in a nice cozy apartment where the sun will shine in every morning from the balcony...

Sigh... those Uni days felt like eons away!

Enough of the reminiscence on those innocent days!
ANYWAY, I had moved into a new household, a sister household.
Both me and my new housemate- Samantha have high expectations towards the new household.
We have always crave to have a closer relationship among the sisters.
And its seems like impossible at one time as we are geographically distanced from each other (and spiritually distanced as well?).
And that leads to the born of the idea of having a sister household.
However, I have to admit that it took me great courage to decide to step out from my comfort zone and that small room in Wangsa Maju.
i can still remember the disbelief look of both Jv and Ky when they step into my room.
Compare to our big room in Albany or Kensington, the room is like a store room by UK standard. hahaha...

Well, the small room has always been my refuge for the past 1++ year.
I am a person who enjoy the solitude,
enjoy being undisturbed and remain happily in my cocoon
some people might called it weird or introvert
However i am contented the way that is ~emotionally isolated.

ANYWAY, the point is to move out from that little world where i can freely do whatever i want (watch anime whole night, recording my own voice while playing guitar throughout the night etc.)without having to connect much to outer world i.e. my ex housemates (dont know them that close anyway, since we are all working adults with different circles of friends) is not an easy step.
I've told myself, if i decided to step out, then there will be a set of expectations from other people and myself.
Will i be able to give up so much of freedom which i have?
Can i stay isolated when i am expected to open my doors wide?

A lot of uncertainties there is.
However, i do felt that this is a right thing to do.
i dont have much time to give before i'm entering into the so called 'not-single-and-available' life.
why not taking the chance to enjoy the sisterhood when i still can.
I do miss those time when ky,jv and me live under one roof.
There is a lot of arguments, but alot of laughters as well.
The sweet and memorable time which we shared together are much valuable than anything else....

Anyway, life got so many things to offer
i will be be fool to not enjoy it to the fullest
C’eist la vie

最後一面

A song for the earth, written and sang by a couple contestants from the famous Taiwan superstar singing competition. What i like about the song is that there is another side of story apart from just the 'love the earth' awareness message, a very mystical love story. These is the author's own words from his blog....

古代有一個浪漫的故事
說著地跟天原本就是戀人
海卻在中間介入他們的情感
海的情緒洶湧常常跟地相爭與天的關係

And looking at the lyrics again...

看海跟天的曖昧 淹沒了這個世界 無力改變
從未融化的冰點 模糊大地的邊緣

我愛你怎麼會太晚才發現
曾經我們擁有美好的夏天
時間不會再給我多一次機會
向這片藍天說抱歉

what a sensual way to describe the issue of global warming, the melting of the iceberg and increment of the sea level. I really love their passion and spirit in song composing and singing. Hopefully she will win this long race and become the 3rd Taiwan Superstar.