Life in a fast lane

In another 46 hours, this is where i'm going to land- ShangHai.

Psssss.... Any tips on what to see and eat in Shanghai??

Sometimes, my family asked me, how on earth do i fly here and there. Well, the answer is i don't know. Probably i'm the best person to go for such business trip as i am both well versed in scientific/technical background, and own a business title, or i am just pure lucky, or...... unlucky, it depends really, on how you look at it. Forget about tourist sight-seeing and shopping, distanced but short business traveling wears you out easily.

Once the plane touch down, whats usually awaiting for me is not the lady in hula skirt, but some middle aged businessman with pot belly, and a complete itinerary in hand. 2 days slipped away silently while you are stuck in boring meetings room, or transiting in taxi rides or in hotel room preparing for next presentation. Once a while looking out the window of great scenery outside, wondering how great it will be to just step out and join the tourist crowd. So most of times, my colleagues and I will compensate ourselves by eating the local delicacies as much as we can. Well, at least food is something which is never lacking in business trip, especially in a place like Shanghai i guess.

Tasks after tasks, meetings after meetings, trip after trip. It can be exhaustive at times. When i am working on some tight timelines project, people usually said that i become someone else. I'll get lost in the laptop for 18 hours straight and i'll drown myself in stacks of documents. Not good enough, i'll perfected; more requirements, i'll deliver; tighter timelines, i'll run around like a roadrunner, but still, in excitement.

then i move on to the next task... I guess i am like that.

Peter asked me sometimes, will i opt for a less hectic job and settle down some day? i said yes, when the day comes. I am not sure by that time, will i miss this life which is always in the fastlane, will i lost in translation, will i eventually lost the efficeincy, task oriented me.... But i know that for whatever i lost, there will be so much more to gain. For now, i will keep on walking anticipatively and looking forward for whats life has to offer.

接受。理解。

发现人其实真的是很特别的动物，脑袋永远装不完各种的想法，好的， 坏的， 自私的，隐藏的。 每一天，新的想法不断的冲击，刺激我们，有人甚至认为人的思维每天都是新的。有时候我们选择对其反应，但更多时候我们选择不去理会它。

今天，对自己想法诚实的人真的是越来越少了。

有否发觉，有些想法是任你怎么解释也无法传递给他人的，不管他/她是你多么要好的朋友，或多么亲密的爱人，即使再精通的语言，很多时候也会感到词穷，到头来发现，只有自己本身能够理解这些思绪。

其实，这也不无道理。语言与思维，二者是紧紧相贴的关系。但，是言语在前，还是思维先呢？在人还没有创造语言之前，思维已存在了。我们怎能用后现代的言语来完整的表达思维呢？我们怎能用有限的言语来分析无限的思维呢？

昨天，很烦躁。因为多翻解释还不能让他人理解。不知不觉地，说话语气也激动起来。其实不是生气，而是感到无奈，因为人的表达有限，因为言语到了尽头，心意却还是隔着城墙。事后，赫然想起自己曾经写过的一篇日志

“真正的朋友是透过互相接受，即使不能互相理解”

所以我好希望他能接受，虽然有时候我们不能互相理解。

人，虽然生活在这个大群体，但很多时候我们是独一的个体。思想若没有交集，在亲密的接触也是枉然。

说起来人活着，还真孤单呢。

其实人真的很犯贱

其实人真的很犯贱，骨子里懒惰，但老板一声下令，赴汤蹈火立刻马上办，边作时嘴里还要酸老板几句。

其实人真的很犯贱，心里很想要，却故作大方高呼不要紧，事后却暗自觉得吃大亏了。

其实人真的很犯贱，明明撑不住了，却还是睁眼说瞎话，拼命乱掰好让自己下台，可是殊不知其实肚里有几斤，别人可一目了然。

其实人真的很犯贱，争出风头当儿，却又上演孔融让梨，功劳捞往自个儿身上，错误都往边扫。

在办公室里，天天上演着犯贱事件。哪一天来场大洒狗血，哪一天又上演肥皂剧。
在办公室里，都是一群自我欺骗，自我陶醉的原始人。


* 真是不吐不快啊！*