Hey there

Hey there, it has been a while.

Many started to ask me whether or not I have gave up blogging. Well, the answer is definitely not, it wasn't that easy to just simply quit like that after blogging for so long. But on the other hand, for some reason, I failed to find the motivation nor the need to pour out so freely like I used to. It's not that my life has been mundane and uneventful, in fact many interesting events happened in the past 4 months- I have landed myself with a new job (finally after 6 years!); managed to accomplish some of the tasks in my 30 before 30s list; went to Bangkok with the girls and etc., but strangely enough, the need to capture all these moments in words, in sentence, was simply no there. 

For many years, blog has been a very faithful friend of mine. For my friends who I didn't get the chance to talk/ hangout that much, i guess the blogger persona was the outlet for the rest of myself to them. It was a persona which I really enjoyed, cuz in my mind, I am a more interesting person in my blog rather than in real life. I don't know about other bloggers, but most of time, I tend to 'over-writing' it, not exaggerating, but more like accentuating it with flowery vocabulary or beautifying it with some sepia filtered pictures, so that the story is more interesting or appealing rather than just another day-to-day updates.

However, sometimes I wonder for those who read my blog, do they make connection between my writing and the person who I really am? Maybe I should try to engage more with them in real life rather than relying on the writing-publish-waiting for comment-replying comment as means of interaction with them. BUT, whenever I think about quitting blogging, I have to admit that I got a little bit scared inside, if I don't document these event somehow, will I forget about it eventually? will  I simply drift across things, passing through everyday repetitively, and never able to find any significant milestones to define my life?

I think it's only human nature that we like to look into the past to define who we really are today. And for this reason alone, I have diligently and religiously documenting my life for the past 7 years in this little blog, so that I will never forget who I was and what I achieved in those years. But as I'm growing older and slowly going down the path of losing my "innocence", the need to be consistently proving to myself and to others who I really am is no longer essential. 

Is it a cliche to say that I am a more matured person now?  

I guess aging really changes people.

Anyway, I guess I am back to blogging now.