2010

"Life aint easy, but its a joy to live."

Sometimes words like this just come to me in the most unexpected, enlightenment way.

2009 has been a long but paradoxically a short year as well. Holidays are short and working days are long, so its all about relativity. Things happened, good things, bad things, its all part of the parcel called life, hence i have nothing to complain about.

To be frank there are a few incidents happened in 2009 which leaves a bitter scar in my heart, those are the lessons which i have learnt and hopefully need not to repeat again in future.

I was forced to say good byes to some of my good friends, whom i recognized as my brothers and sisters. We used to fight for the same course and the spiritual bonding which we shared is as deep as blood bonds. Honestly, am not good in communication and sometimes am lack of initiative when it comes to maintaining friendship. I may not be expressive, but i do care. The fact that human are physicals, there is always an inherent barrier in how we are connecting to each other. We are not spiritual beings whereby the emotions can be freely shared or communicated through some magical telepathic manner. There are times when words are simply not enough, and actions are seen as meaningless.

However, though ideology may changed, principles may differed, paths may diverted, i'm thankful that the feeling for each other is always there. Though we are walking on different ways now but our paths still intertwined with each others.

Yeah, we do love each other more than the differences between us.

On the positive side, there are also times whereby i felt like i can never said 'thank you' enough. I had ample of chances in 2009 to travel around, Shanghai, Cheong Qing, Hanoi, Jakarta, Singapore, Langkawi, Hong Kong etc. and the travel experience opened up my horizon and enriched my life like never before. I'd met different people, of all walks of life and all kinds of culture, skin color, profession. And through them i came to realize that what a wonderful world we live in.

I'm also thankful for the change in my career as i'd nearly give up and seriously considered to resign at one point of time. Business speaks selfish languages. In order to protect company's best interest, i'm forced to be part of the game. It was a battle which i faced everyday the moment i stepped into the office, against the enemy i called 'myself'. I'm lucky in a sense that my company had decided to give me the chance to perform to the best of my capability and capacity in the area which i'm comfortable at. I'd changed from my current position of business development to Product portfolio development and management. For whatever reason (maybe its because my boss getting tired of me objecting him all time), i'm thankful.

Anyway, its only a few more hours to go before we wave good bye to 2009. To all who read this, thank you for the companionship we shared in words. I've nearly forgotten how fun it is to write.

Happy 2010!

Merry belated Christmas

Was away for a long Christmas holiday for the past one week, i'm glad to say I AM BACK! finally!

Anyway, have around 60 emails in my inbox to clear off, so I wont be naggy today. Alot of things happened during the trip which i'm eager to share with all my friends in this space, but i do need some time to re arrange my stuff, my room, recollect my thoughts before i'm actually pen it down (or rather type it out).

The funny thing is while i'm away from my laptop for the whole week, i missed being online dearly, i missed checking my friend's blogs, spying on what others did or eat, youtubing, or simply random browsing.... Many times i have this strong feeling of need and urgency to pour out everything i saw, heard, experienced and the expansive dose of words in me. However, when i finally back, my thoughts was so scattered and diffused, and i have to literally cool down and settle my mind before i can throw myself back to the world of blogging.

Anyway, at the mean time, i would like to say THANK YOU, a zillion times to my families and friends who are so generous with their presents and wishes. Its truly a blessing to have you all during this season of love and sharing.

For some reason, i had received alot of cosmetics gifts. However the most unexpected gift of all is from Peter's mom, a cute blue mug which have nice little nose.

Before i got the chance to ask her how come the mug only have a nose but no eyes and mouth, she started to laugh hysterically. You can imagine how confused i am, until I went and checked the prints on the mug, which says:

"Check your breast today"

Avatar, when human become inhumane

* BIG SPOILER * dont read this if you planned to watch Avatar.

I went to watch Avatar yesterday. To be frank, take away the tiny flaws in the plot of the story, i have to say it was pretty entertaining and i enjoyed it very much. Its good that sometime we go to watch movie without any expectation and when its still oven hot, there wont be much reviews from others which may creates certain biasness and expectation in our mind.

The perfect example- New moon, get what i mean?

James Cameron must be really craving for a BIG comeback after the history making Titanic blockbuster, cuz Avatar is a movie with gob-smacking sensory overloaded visuals impacts. It was action packed, full with vivid colors, beautiful and almost magical sceneries, but the most captivating thing about the movie is that the 3D scenes are almost human real without the cartoonish/anime-nish look.

Avatar talks about human invation into a foreign planet of an indegenious species called Na'vi to mine for a precious mineral. Jake Sully, an ex marine who was paralyzed from the waist down was hired as the driver (through neural links) for Avatar, a biological replication of Na'vi species created by human. The Avatar programme aimed at diplomacy between the two population however Jake Sully was the mole who repurpose the programme from diplomacy to espionage.

What's unexpected was Jake fell in love with his new body, new identity, new culture, new home and Neytiri, the teacher and the princess who taught him everything about being a Na'vi. He soon realized Pandora (the greens) and the Na'vis are too precious to be destroyed by humans and the realization led him to road of betrayer for his own species.

My movie kaki felt that Avatar is the Sci fi version of Disney's Pocahantus story, except that Jake Sully become the de facto leader of the indegenious population while John Smith had failed miserably, leaving behind Pocahantos and the colors of the wind. To me, it was not much of a love story, but more of a man whom was given a second chance to live again. In the Navi's body, Jake had experienced the life which he can never experienced in his crippled body, although his physicals was still in the human's world, but his conscious and heart is with the Na'vis. Well, given the chance, who wants to be associated with human whose greed is a never ending black hole.

Avatar was not the first movie which describe cruelty of human against the other life form, the inhuman act of human in District 9 preceeded Avatar in many ways. Its kinda funny to see the crowds in the cinema shed tears when the Na'vis were butchered and cheered when the human troops were killed, what an irony. In my opinion, it wasnt something which is outrageous or absurb, if human are mass killing themselves (genocides, war), what stopping them from killing the 'aliens'?

The movie was indeed an eye opener.