I believe

I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that each one of us no matter where you've come from or where you find yourself today, was lovingly created and fashioned by our beautiful God.

I believe through the understanding and truly knowing that God created each of us unique and different, allows us to trust, to love and to believe.

I believe that thus this fact cause us to live purpose driven lives-lives lived passionately. (my friends, now you know where did my motto"live life with passion and purpose" came from.)

I believe that God is faithful to give you above and beyond everything you need to achieve your sense of purpose on earth, graced for life and favoured for living.

I believed in live lifes with an understanding that our time on earth was never given to us as a gift for purely ourselves, but that our lives should lift the lives of others as well.

I believe that this is where the Lord place our value while living this life. You are excited about life, filled with passion and zeal, and try to help others to realize the fact and further live their life with purpose as well.

I still believe.....

~wrote this during the quiet time with Abba Lord....

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delete reply ahlok2003 wrote on Feb 3, '05 how beautiful 'believe' is...

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 3, '05 ahlok2003 said how beautiful 'believe' is... surprise to see you here.... hope you are enjoying your holiday...

delete reply ahlok2003 wrote on Feb 5, '05 atlantisian said surprise to see you here.... hope you are enjoying your holiday... y said so?? i still alive what...hahaha... ya..just look around here and keep in touch..

delete reply lyonlionel wrote on Feb 3, '05, edited on Feb 3, '05 To believe is good. I wish I have what it takes to do so.

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 7, '05 lyonlionel said To believe is good. I wish I have what it takes to do so. first you gotta believe that you still can believe......

delete reply banana2 wrote on Feb 5, '05 hope your faith is strong forever

Discreet thoughts... or i am just boring

thoughts no.1:
Have you ever wanted something so bad, but when you actually got it, you started to ask why you actually want it in the first place? Well, i craved so much for some free time as it has been a rollercoaster-nonstop-busy life i had since last two months. But now, when i had all the free time for myself, i felt more restless compare to when i'm in the middle of exam. well, i'm still content to inhale and exhale, eat and sleep and apply all those routine necesseties of life, day in and day out... but felt the losing of purpose of doing it....ok, i admit i'm a studyholic, i ENJOYED being busy, in another words, it's the busy and pressure that keeps me driven, ( it doesn't sound that bad right? at least i'm not a masochist) hmmm...maybe i will get my life back in track after i get my ass back to KL.

thoughts no.2:
am i an affable person? am i a person that is not difficult to approach or talk to? am i down to earth? suddenly all these question struck my mind. Well, i don't think i'm really up to that standard yet.... i don't think i can be friendly to EVERYone all the time, i have to admit i'm not really good at socializing anyway, i don't click with everyone and i don't intend to pretend i am. Artificial affability might fool some of the people some of the time, but to most people it's as apparent as a counterfeit coin. Sometime It's better to remain silent than to talk for the mere sake of talking, don't smile if it's not really sincere from your heart. So, what to say, I have my own character, and i believe that character is what we are...

thoughts no.3
Read the newspaper today, some idiots swallow whole packs of drugs just to prevent being caught by policeman at the boarding gate of the airport, but then, they were caught redhanded anyway.... really dunno why there are such people in this world that never cease to try to make the world miserable. Living in the shadow of atomic catastrophe ( do you know that there are countless chemical chain reaction occurs in our surrounding every second and we are not aware of it? ozone degrade and reformed, sulfur trioxide breaksdown and reoxidized....), in a age disturbed by political and race conflicts, by fears of plane crash into another sky reaching building(hmmm...KLCC?), by wide spread of computer virus,and a growing disrespect for law and orders, are you still yourself? are you still the same old girl that think that "there will be a better tomorrow?"... I guess in the end, that's why mother nature feel that it's enough for those snooty and snobbish homo sapiens to ruin the world, and thus, ocean roars and seas tempers, taken away precious breaths and lifes... i think more are still to come untill human know how to appreciate lifes.

Thoughts no.4:
I'm not a Utopian, cuz' i knew i'm not living in an imaginery perfect society. But i'm an atlantisian, living in my own lost world....

ps: dunno why i have all these thoughts, i'm just bored to death....

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delete reply banana2 wrote on Feb 5, '05 haha, surely u are bored! so free? got nothing to do? u could always act like a tree, absorbing moisture from the surrounding, photosynthesizing, listening to the song of the birds that stop at you branches... then u will be very busy liao.

delete reply pohmui wrote on Feb 5, '05 ok.. ideas from banana.. good to be a banana tree..:p

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 5, '05 pretend to be a tree, photosyntesizing some more, that's 'FUN'... huh???? no thanx ,don't wanna end up being GREEN.... anyway, dear my fenz out there, suggets something for me to kill the time....

delete reply pohmui wrote on Feb 5, '05 atlantisian said pretend to be a tree, photosyntesizing some more, that's 'FUN'... huh???? no thanx ,don't wanna end up being GREEN.... anyway, dear my fenz out there, suggets something for me to kill the time.... use ur knowledge of html and build a blog like i did.. anyway, a blog is a thing to kill time.. when you are very very free.. u can try help me look for a place to upload movie or song for free, so that we can post it up.. maybe making our own flash would be nice. :P

delete reply banana2 wrote on Feb 6, '05 u are surely the kind of people who like to work. ok lah, u want to kill ur time? very easy, u can do what tammy said or u can take short course. u can work, too, if u want. or u can clean ur house again and again until u can't find any dust, good for ur health.

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 7, '05 banana2 said u are surely the kind of people who like to work. ok lah, u want to kill ur time? very easy, u can do what tammy said or u can take short course. u can work, too, if u want. or u can clean ur house again and again until u can't find any dust, good for ur health. cant online that often, no streamix... my room is damned clean already.. anway, reading a sidney shieldon novel now.... GONG XI FA CHAI everyone!!

delete reply eugenetwj wrote on Feb 8, '05 Well, there are many things to do... since internet is not an option, housecleaning isnt necessary, and photosynthesizing isnt exciting you... perhaps you should try travelling. Yea, one man travelling, or in this case, one woman. You'd be surprised how fulfilling it is. Leave for a day or two. The point is not in travelling far, but by going to less happening places and places you never/dont wanna/dont hafta go... you'll gather new insights abt these places. If you're in KL, the redlight district is where you wanna be headed to first. Hehhehe... but you're in srwk, so go swim in the longest malaysian river, wats it called again? The Mekong (and its giant catfishes) ? FYI: Mekong + Giant catfishes was charmaines seminar topic, ><

delete reply pohmui wrote on Feb 8, '05 oh ya? i tot it is sungai rejang?

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 10, '05 eugenetwj said Well, there are many things to do... since internet is not an option, housecleaning isnt necessary, and photosynthesizing isnt exciting you... perhaps you should try travelling. Yea, one man travelling, or in this case, one woman. You'd be surprised how fulfilling it is. Leave for a day or two. The point is not in travelling far, but by going to less happening places and places you never/dont wanna/dont hafta go... you'll gather new insights abt these places. If you're in KL, the redlight district is where you wanna be headed to first. Hehhehe... but you're in srwk, so go swim in the longest malaysian river, wats it called again? The Mekong (and its giant catfishes) ? FYI: Mekong + Giant catfishes was charmaines seminar topic, >< ala you arr... revice your geography lar...travelling sounds ok... maybe i'll go to Johor, then i can hang out with you and Angeline..hehehe

delete reply eugenetwj wrote on Feb 13, '05 Watever... geography sux. Come to johor la... hehe... bring lots of cash. Oh wats Angeline doing now huh? I sms-ed her but she din reply. Damn stuckup la tat girl.

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Feb 15, '05, edited on Feb 15, '05 eugenetwj said Watever... geography sux. Come to johor la... hehe... bring lots of cash. Oh wats Angeline doing now huh? I sms-ed her but she din reply. Damn stuckup la tat girl. busy dating lar... but she will be back to KL to hunt for jobs... spent half of my ang pow already :( If i go to Johor, i'll be parasiting you... hehe

delete reply eugenetwj wrote on Feb 16, '05 EH! Go parasite on Angeline laaaa... her bf shud be covering all her expenses, so she can afford you. I, on the other hand...

delete reply pohmui wrote on Mar 6, '05 on the other hand.. spend your money... on...

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Mar 6, '05 pohmui said on the other hand.. spend your money... on... great to see you strike back, finish NS already? hei, blog about it k?

delete reply pohmui wrote on Mar 6, '05 ya i am back.. it was nice and i will blog on it soon

The post molting

The most difficult lesson i learnt everytime i underwent the molting process of my life is saying good bye. The funny things is, there is no such thing as learning from experience, like the snakes and crustacea shedding it's skin for ecdysis and transformation, each time, it gets harder and harder to do so as you become older....

'Good bye' is always harder than 'hello', cuz' as the word come out from your mouth, it come along with some emotional attachment as well. You say good bye when the sun goes down and the day had ended, you say good bye when a friendship had reached to a fullstop, you say good bye when the duration of your presence in the certain event, time and place had reached a due date. you said good bye when everything great had came to The End.

But still, these are nothin when it compares to the fact that you say good bye with a piece of your heart forever missing to that person you said good bye to. i tend to get emotional and maybe a little bit sensual when it comes to say good bye, knowing the fact that maybe there will be a possibility that "see you next time" is just a blaff, maybe there will be no 'sometime, somewhere, someplace' for us in the future.... The future is unpredictable, how can you so sure that this is actually not the end?

Life is ironic. Everything is conditioned in a way that it seems to be unconditioned, well, if we never gonna have the chance to meet each other again in the future, at least please spare a few moment to read through my final words...

"it has been great to know you guys, i've came to realized that the great measures of blessing in these four years of my life in KL actually came from you all. without you, i really dunno how can i survive thru' this, words simply cannot utter how appreciate i am. The only thing i can promise you is not 'we will meet again someday' ,but is 'i'll pray to The Almighty to shower you with blesses and love in each and everyday of your life.' and lastly, GOOD BYE..." ~Atlantisian(29/1/2005)


"I AM GOING"

Play me a chopin's nocture please
expecting some sour notes
slipping from your fingertips
to show your feelings on my leaving

Give me a farewell kiss please
splash a few tears on me too
let me bring a piece of you
as i leaving this present life

Hold my left hand tight please
until i enter the gates of departure hall
Let me bring a drop of your innocent love
as i enter this hypocrite but real world

Wish me Bon voyage please
as i'm leaving on a jet plane
i packed all the splendor in my baggage
as i step into the beginning of my new life

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delete reply banana2 wrote on Jan 29, '05 farewell may u and ur family be well and happy

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Jan 29, '05 banana2 said farewell may u and ur family be well and happy good bye... anyway, i'll be back to KL soon, during the end of feb gua, so are you going back to home town as well?

delete reply banana2 wrote on Jan 29, '05 atlantisian said good bye... anyway, i'll be back to KL soon, during the end of feb gua, so are you going back to home town as well? yup i will go back to penang

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Jan 30, '05 banana2 said yup i will go back to penang see you today, didn't realize ler.... at sungai wang, with Julian and karfook, hehehe.....anyway, have a nice journey while going back...

delete reply lyonlionel wrote on Jan 29, '05, edited on Jan 29, '05 Good Byes are never really easy. Part now with tears of sorrow and may you all reunite one day with tears of joy.

delete reply pohmui wrote on Jan 29, '05 farewell.. good luck and well done.