A skirt

I've discovered something new yesterday.

Human eyes are easily accustomed to the things we see everyday.

Vision is totally an abstraction. Our brain relates an item with the image captured through our eyes, auto tagged it and stored in our grey matter. so whenever we think of the particular item, our brain will auto retrieve the same image from the database and try to superimpose it with what we currently see.

Some people said its memory (stored in the temporary folder), i called it a perception with inherent bias.

For example,

Jane is the hermit who wears her signature THICK spectacles and hiding behind the cubicles all the time.
John is the fat guy who has a pot belly twice of a 5 months pregnant lady
Jerry is the short hyper guy who jumps while he walks, who laugh while he talks.

So what about Susan?

Well, (i think) in most of my colleague's pre conceived perception, Susan is the one who talks at the speed of light and high desibel when she is excited, sometimes walking around the office in barefoot (because tired of wearing the high heels), always wear dull monochromic suit, very un lady like (hence prefer pants over skirt), even if she is wearing a skirt, is most likely a knee length formal cut black skirt.

Overall she is average lah.

Until yesterday...

When she walked into the office, the boss looking at her with expanded pupils, and started laughing non stop. When he was finally able to catch his breath and gain his composure, he said: "Susan you look like a school girl today."

Throughout the entire day, she received funny stares and comments like "Susan you look young", "Susan you are wearing...."

Whats the fuss is all about!

People getting excited all over because i'm wearing ..... an A line ruffle skirt ..... (-___-)'''

Am totally confused.

Losing faith

I still have hundreds of things in my unfinished tasks list but am too numb to work on it on rainy Friday afternoon. It was pouring like crazy outside. All around me is quiet, everyone was fixing their eyes on computer screen and the entire office felt so cold and tranquil.

Anyway, weather like this always bring out the gloomy side of me.

There is something bothering me like a swarm of fluttering bees in my mind for the past few days. Its about losing faith.

Have a heart to heart talk with a close friend of mine last weekend. She was struggled badly to stay afloat while there are so many different things in her life weighing her down. There was no big dramatic event leading up to this, which made it particularly more difficult to rationalize away. In retrospect, career challenges, financial commitments, peer pressure had outweighs the simple faith she had over the past year or so. I had a bad feeling that she is sinking down fast and the faith which holding her strong all theses while is slowly slipping away.

We used to be fighting for the same course and firmly believed in what we pursuing. In fact we are the witness for each other's faith and its always a silent understanding between us that we will uphold and always be there for each other. It saddened me that since we had departed our ways, i was totally blinded towards her strife and struggles.

Being human, we tend to lose faith easily in many things. It can be faith in a relationship, career, particular interest, religion or even a person. I must admit that i've did it couple of times myself. I lose faith in my first relationship because of the 6 hours unreachable gap between Malaysia and Johannesburg; I lose faith in a friendship because i find myself can never be the perfect person he wants me to be; I lose faith in some big churches because i can only see the four walls and a roof, not the life of the believers.

Frankly its human to err, so as its human to easily lose faith. How many of us are persistent and endurance in our pursue? How many of us are still eagerly pursuing our childhood dreams after years of disappointment/failure? How many of us able to fulfill the vow of loving a person till death do us part? How many of us are still honest in our thoughts/believes and not distracted by other temptations along the way?

I have a friend who switch love target in a matter of days. One day he can boldly declaring his undying love to one, but as soon as he sense a slight signal of 'might be rejected', he will turn 180 degrees and start to look for a new target. I have another friend who finished his bio degree and hooping from one job to another, without staying for more than half a year each. Thinking the next one will be his lucky strike.

Faith sounds ancient and impractical in this age as most of us feel that following the tide as it flows is a much easy way out than battling against the tide.

Honestly I was very much demotivated after the conversation .... until she send me a sms last weekend, telling me that she was strengthen by words from Heb 12:3 "Do not be wearied and lose heart". I opened up the bible and continue to read from there..

7 "Endure hardship as discipline...
11"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it
12-13 "Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees; And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed.

My heart silently rejoice when i see the words. It really doesnt matter how hard will it be in this journey of pursuing the faith, what matters is where it leads us to in the end.

Food vs Man

Am extremely busy this week, this is just a filler to fill the void during my absence.

Hangout with my mates last Saturday at One Utama and having a bite at New York Deli. We've ordered some salad and Junkie Beef Burger.

Except that this junkie beef burger is extremely humongous.. (the price as well of course, the burger alone cost RM43)

The waiter told us that anyone who can finish this burger by her/himself (without sharing with anyone that is), can walk away without paying a penny.

Anyone dare to challenge?