Pictures tell thousands words

My brother in law has a great interest in photography, in my definition: expensive hobby and expensive camera, not sure whether its a DSLR Camera or not, but i have to admit the photo quality is good. Here come some nice pictures...

Sister in her night gown with her favourite Mashimaro

The 3 girls, My cousin Eunice and my sister
Combo

The newly wed couple (this is my work of art)

Below is the designs for the cover of my sister's wedding ceremony program which i have come out with, strictly photoshoped. Consider not bad for a one year old photoshopper right? Maybe i do have some designer gene in my DNA makeup.

I like the third design, with the reflection of the rose in black background, but my sis said too radical as you know, black and chinese marriages are not 'ngam' (compatible). Anyway, the couple opted the 1st design in the end...

ding ding dong

Christmas 2007 (from atlantisian.multiply.com)

It was early Tuesday morning, the angels woke me up as i dream of an old Christmas song.

"Christmas isn’t Christmas
Till it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you Is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to people
You’ll discover when you do
That it’s Christmas, really Christmas for you!"

The KLCC shopping mall was excessively packed with last minute shoppers last sunday night, the area where the parking ticket vending machines located were so crowded that the queque looks like a maze to me. Well, its not like i have any issue with it cuz its vain just to say things like that and then swim right back into the sea of shoppers. Although christmas has been commercialized nowadays (to the extent i'm quite agree with that). However, i always think that Christmas is not just about gifts and christmas party. Its about the SPIRIT of christmas!! How the christmas songs can lighten the mood, how the sight of the shinning christmas tree able to make your inner child running out, how the surprise christmas gift will makes you cries out in glee, and how the Christmas Mass draws you so nearer to the baby Christ.

Christmas time these days really stir up a lot of my emotion, it really reminds me that growing up is fun. I brought up in traditional Christian family, and as a child, i've always love Christmas season, cuz its my once a year 'happening' moment where i get to wear up my shinning white dresses and become the angle who declared the good news of the birth of Jesus Christ during the caroling. it just oozes such a warm fuzzy feeling everytime i reminescence on those innocent days.

Although now i have jumped out of the traditional frame of the Christians, I still harbor a lot of these similar feelings for Christmas. While i'm writing these, my heart is singing with the excitement of wanting to share all of these feelings out bluntly with no reserve. people asked me shouldn't we do these at all time instead of only once a year, people also criticizes those consumers who falls into the fake Christmas tranquility putting up by those smart business man. what i really wanted to say is whether we like it or not, living in the city itself makes us get too caught up in our lives and forget about what's the thing which matters the most. So is it that bad if we have some nice holidays to remind us what we should be doing more often, and if not, the purpose of what we celebrate? The civilizations had created special occasions to bring people together, and why not we take full advantages of it instead being defensive and critical?

.... To read the rest please go to http://atlantisian.multiply.com/journal/item/93

Christmas 2008

That was my last year's christmas entry (now you know why is it in itallic). 2008 has been a year of fast pace. Looking back at my own writing a year ago, i actually felt quite the same as how i felt last year. And the next thing i did was.... a sigh.... without even realizing it. It's neither a sigh in grateful nor in regret. It just a simple expression of realization, kinda like "here comes the christmas, and here it goes again" if you know what i mean.

Well, this year the Christmas came and knocked on the door with all the up to 70% End year sale and Christmas sales. Sadly to say, that's the first indication of the coming of Christmas in many cities, although i would prefer snow better. How i miss the white Christmas in Liverpool... One thing which is very much noticeable is that the Christmas decor was not as elaborative as last year, especially in Singapore. Previously, I heard alot about the extravagance and magnificent of the Christmas decor at Orchard Road. Well, my anticipation did not paid off as the decoration was, in a Malaysian's slang, so so only. I think the ripples effect of economic recession storm in US is slowly spreading to this part of the world as well.

Attending Christmas Mass on christmas morning has been my life long tradition and practice. Although Peter's family and I were in Singapore this year, but we still take the effort to wake up early at 630am, take the MRT and attend the christmas mass at this big Catholic Church. It was a great morning with cool breeze and i was sincerely happy cuz its christmas. However, there is this one incident which happens during the christmas morning which really ruin my christmas mood.
We are early in the church, while waiting for the service to start, i was chatting with Peter on how my previous christmas experiences in hometown were like. Suddenly this old lady who sitting beside me told me off in a very stern voice, "Please be quiet, church is for praying not for conversation". Her voice was quite loud even Peter's family who sitting at the back row heard it.
My instant reflex was like "oh.. sorry", but when i recollect myself, i can't helped but asking myself, do i REALLY need to apologize? At that point, I was really dissapointed by the whole incident to an extent that i cant even concentrated on the sermon. Later the old lady moved to the side, making space for others to sit between us. However, she still give me this nasty glance now and then as if she was checking whether i am still chatting or not. Peter's family were kinda taken aback by her remark as well and offered me comfort through a pat on my shoulder, Peter's aunt even pointed out to me when that lady was chatting with the person sitting beside her as well.

Is church not a place for conversation? church is not a building, in fact its the body of Christ, people who believe in God gather together, fellowship and enjoying each other presence while worshipping God, that is the church of disciples's day, and i believe that's the church of today as well. How can we shut off the communication between brethren and just focus the communication with God? The conventional old stream church always talks bad about Charismatic church, but one thing for sure, these young churches never think that engaging conversation and interacting with brethren is a nuisance. No wonder when i looked around at the congregation, all i can see is people of middle age and above. No youngsters, no vibrance, just pieces of meat which are emotionless and don't talk to each other.

Christmas...... what does it mean to you, dear old lady?

The wedding

i went back to Kuching for a good 1 week for my sister wedding a month ago. It has been a long waited holiday for me, i have been anticipated for long since this is the first wedding in my family history, as well as the first time being the maid of honor.

It was a mixed feeling to see my sister was married to her love of the life time. Part of me am very very happy to see her finally walk down the isles, with my brother in law waiting in front of the church alter, welcoming her into his strong arms. But other part of me felt very sad, as if my sister is leaving me and our family to become someone else's daughter in law and wife.

I know this sounds kinda funny, but it really felt like...... my daughter is getting married.... Although my sister is two years older than me, but due to the fact that i am physically bigger size than her, and socially i am always the outgoing and traveller type (i left my home since 18 for a good 8 years now), hence people always mistook her for being my younger sister. We used to fight alot during our adolescent days since we were always forced to share our stuffs together (from room, books, to clothes etc. anything, you name it), however our relationship has improved so much since i came back from UK. Maybe due to the fact that we are more settled and emotionally matured by then, we have lots of fun shopping and eating together, as well as bitching about works and relationships while lying on the hotel's bed together.

Never realized that how much i love her until THAT day. She had grown into such a fine lady, looking so stunning and pure in her wedding dress and behind the white vail. At that moment, i really felt that my emotions was overwhelmed and overflowed, recollected in a stupor, as if all my words were fading away, failing to describe the heart which was so touched by the reunion of the two souls.


Click here for more photos from Elvis, the photographer. http://beingelvish.multiply.com/photos/album/54/Soon_Fuan_Cheng_Ting

i'm really thankful to both of them as I could not helped but realized that this is not just another typical marriage. Some people treat marriages as culture or ceremony, some are arranged with no love, some maybe out of convenience, some has lost its meaning and permanance. However when the two exchange the wedding vow and said "i do", i know this is a marriage that is blessed by both families and God-honoring.

Jie, you will always be my sister, and Soon Fan, welcome to the family.

When God made you ( by Newsong and Natalie Grant)
It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

Chorus:
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I have never been so sure of anything in my life

Bridge:
He made the sun
He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
Cause my world just can’t be right
Without you in my life

Tag chorus:
He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you He must have been thinking about me

The Language of God Part 1

I am reading this book by Dr. Francis Collins lately, its called "The Language of God". Dr. Collins is the head of the human Genome project, most of the people may fail to acknowledge and appreciate what he had done, but for me, and the rest of thousands of molecular scientists where they deal with ATGC, the 4 alphabets in and out everyday of their life, he is the person who lays the foundation of all the human genetic research which we had harvested today.

Dr Collins is the one who leads the team of scientists who type out the very first human genetic sequence. The 3 billions letters, one by one, which is the building block of life. In his book there is a paragraph which described the day where this amazing script was announced to the whole world in the east room of white house. ".....Clinton speech began by comparing this human sequence map to map that Meriwether Lewis had unfolded in front of Precident Thomas Jefferson in that very room nearly 200 years earlier. Clinton said: "Without a doubt, this the most important, most wondrous map ever produced by humankind." But the part of his speech that most attracted public attention jumped from scientific perspective to the spiritual. "Today", he said, " we learning the language of God in which God created life. we are gaining ever more awe for the complexity, the beauty, and the wonder of God's most divine and sacred gift".

When i read this, my heart literally stunned. Was i, a rigorously educated and trained science person, taken aback by such a blatantly religious reference by the leader of free world on such a astonishing discovery? No, in fact, my heart echoed with his statement. The achievement of such a milestone, not just signify the starting of great advancement in the human genetics and medicine research, it also strucked me that we have caught the first glimpse of our own manual, written by the God Himself.

Anyway, this is just my thoughts after reading the first chapter, i will write more on subsequent chapters which talks about the harmonization between science and religion, how to confess that your belief when you are a scientist....

To be continue....

National day 2008

This is a late late post, i was only enlighten to write this post three weeks after the National Day. To be truth, its awfully quiet this year, no celebration, no fireworks, just a good old speech from our dear PM on tele.

Peter, his mates and I went for a nice dinner at Alexis Bar during the last Merdeka eve (have a look at Peter's entry at http://alimento.wordpress.com/2008/09/09/alexis-ampang-on-merdeka-eve/). Its so funny that nowadays people are not celebrating Hari Merdeka because its Hari Merdeka anymore. Instead, they are celebrating it because the next day is a holiday and you know its good to hang out sometimes with old mates.

Today's generation had slowly lose their appreciation towards history and culture/tradition, i am not particularly feeling sad or fret too much over it, cuz personally i think this is just a natural evolution. How many people actually practice the idols and ancestry worshiping like those days in traditional china community? How many people know their ancestry root and are eager to trace it back to their home country like China and India?

Today, as the intellectuality gaining its weights and modernization takes place, people's mind and action are more goal orientated, they dont spend time and effort doing something just because the rest of 25 millions people are doing it, unless its of some interest to them.

Same goes with the patriotism, how many Malaysian truly knows the meaning of Merdeka? The only merdeka which i know is the black and white motion picture of The late Tunku Abdul Rahman shouting in front of the crowds, declaring the starting of an identity called Malaysian. It was a BIG thing back then for those people who live through the British colonial era.

However, the sudden popularization of Internet and the global village concept has really revolutionize the way people define 'nationality'. and suddenly, out of no where its more 'cool' to become a global citizen rather than Malaysian. We are living and standing on the same soil called earth, we are build from the same genetic sequences from 100,000 years ago till today, so what makes us so different then? skin color? language? dialects? occupation? Like my boss always says, there is no race but 1 race, the F1 race (ok, i know its lame).

Anyway, i still love my country, its on this land that i was born and nurtured to the person i am now, i dont intend to become a 'kacang melupakan kulit'. Just that i think its time for us to have a more open heart and 'global' mind rather then fighting over petty racial issue and teritory issue all the time. So, happy belated merdeka, friends.

Mizi shabu shabu

I had a nice farewell dinner with my colleague a few weeks ago at a steamboat restaurant in Puchong. My stomach was an inch wider when i went out of Mizi Shabu Shabu restaurant. Its a not so conventional type of steamboat restaurant, where you have the sushi conveyor belt with individual steamboat.



The fun thing is you can mix and make your own steamboat soup, just add in dried fish, mushroom, oyster and wala! you get your nice self-made soup. Also, there is no charcoal, no gas tanks, but electricity to heat up or keep warm the soup.

i love their thin slices of pork meat and the squid, so juicy and yummy. You should only submerge the pork in the steam soup for couple of seconds, dip into their signature onion soya source and eat the whole slice in a go. Gosh, its sinful.



i enjoyed very very much the companion of my fellow colleagues as we talk about things like office affairs, pets and so on. Its quite rare for me to have the chance to share and spend time with them as i am in the business team while they are in the Technology team. However, on occasion like this (especially when good food is involved), we lose all the inhibition and laughed at stupid jokes and craps. I think its really a Chinese culture to connect to each other while eating.

This reminds me of another rare conversation i had with one of the software engineer intern, Han, whereby one good afternoon we talked about religions and beliefs over Tosai and Teh Tarik. Although he is an atheist, however, his view towards God and faith really intrigue me. I'm actually much senior to him in this company, however, the way he speaks and thinks is far more mature than my own peers. Maybe its the fact that youngsters nowadays are expose to working environment, media/internet and socials much earlier than those days of our generation, and that's why they don't look like their age and are less naive and more strong in character.

Anyway, just wanna wish Han and Dai (the Vietnamese guy who is my Doraemon anime supplier) all the best in whatever they do in future as they going back to their Uni for final year. Its a very short time of companionship but its such a great pleasure to have our life intersect in such a way for the past few months.



All the best pal!

My new baby

This is my new baby, Sony Ericsson's W660.


















It has the cool, sleekly look, like the Dunhill's slogan, "Gaya, mutu, keunggulan"
It has tons of functions which i yet to discover it all
Its in black, my favorite color!
i personally against the red color version which most of my friend preferred,
in which half of the back cover has been adorned with floral motives, while the black version has been encrusted with geometrical motives that look like concentric circles.
well, if you wanna look pimpish with a red mobile phone encrusted with flower motives in your hands, that will be your choice i guess...










Well, I am contented with my blackie!

Everyone is getting married

Wedding bell is ringing.... here, there and everywhere

when i say everyone, i do mean EVERYONE!
Many of my ex classmate, coursemate, friends, friend's sister (you name it) are getting married soon. In fact, my best buddy during my secondary school days gonna tie the knot in coming October. It so funny that those days we used to talk about who we admired and those stupid crush. And now.... look at her, she is walking down the isle and settling down with the man of her life.

Anyway, my sister is getting married too (Now you know where this post coming from..), she has been preparing for her wedding in November for quite some times now. Being the only sister she has, she had conveniently asking me to window shopping for her for LIST of stuffs from wedding shoes to ring pillow. Well, the only problem is that she is fussy, well, cant blame her, this is THE day of her life, of course everything need to be at its perfect. Therefore, i need to go to Multiple malls for Multiple times to accomplish the task.

One thing which i learn for the whole process is:

Getting married is bloody EXPENSIVE!

Simple things like basket for the flower girl at LL can cost up to RM50++, and the funny thing is, i can copycat the whole thing with some basket from pasar malam and sew it with some lace. I bought a nice ring pillow from Memory lane (see picture), which for me is quite simple yet cute, and the price is reasonable (less than RM30). However, my sister being herself, said that there is not enough of lace -_-'' .Anyway,the person who suffered the most is not me, but my dear, cuz he has to accompany me to do all these shopping. And his final conclusion after these whole process is:

"Can we elope next time?"

存在

Do you believe in afterlife?
Do you believe in the existence of soul or spirit as our true ‘being’ instead of the fleshly body?
Do you believe that this body we have will passed away one day, but the ‘being’ will stays forever?

Bible has an interesting analogy of describing our body as the tent or clothes
The day our physical body dies, we will be unclothed, we will leave the tent which our 'being' housed
For sure, our ‘being’ doesn’t aged like our physical body rotten as we getting older
If our being is everlasting, I wonder is that is a blessing or a curse
What kind of everlasting life we will live?
And do we have any control over that?
When we leave this tent, what are the things from this world which we can bring to after life?
Is our days on earth has any significance towards our everlasting destination?

I would say yes.
I don’t know do we forget all the memories we had on earth the day our spirit leaves our body
But I ‘m sure that there is a meaning behind the fact that our life start in this earth
The fact that we were born into this world in the form of flesh for 70-80 years
And that things which we did in this earth will somehow determine how our life will be in this everlasting
Our the quality of life which we led in this world will be a mirror image of the life of the afterlife

So, what is your 'being' means to you?
Do we treasure our body, the clothes more than our 'being'?
We thought about what to feed to our body everyday
How to keep this body in shape, to stay young and healthy
But what is the point of keeping this clothes on if the clothes is old and torn now
Why are we resenting the idea of shedding this clothes?
The day when we shed our clothes, will we feel ashamed like Adam and Eve, covering themselves with leaves, hiding in the bushes
We came naked when we are born into this world,
with no title, no assets, and certainly no fancy clothes
Why are we ashamed if we are stark naked in front of the almighty God

"Being" is the qualities constituting one that exists; the essence
However i like my own chinese definition better~存在

你的存在在于什么？
很喜欢梁静如崇拜里的一句歌词
“我的存在在你的存在”

你呢？

Open for visit

i am getting older... that's a fact which i can no longer deny.
Being 25 is not as sweet as the days when we used to be forever 18.
At the age of mid 20s, another day passed by reminds you that you are marching a step closer to the middle age group, a.k.a the aunties group.

i am not sure why such a thought came to me suddenly, but i guess having that kind of thought itself proved that i am getting older.
It amused me to think back those youthful days...
Wondering how to look more mature, having dreams of being an independent career women living in a nice cozy apartment where the sun will shine in every morning from the balcony...

Sigh... those Uni days felt like eons away!

Enough of the reminiscence on those innocent days!
ANYWAY, I had moved into a new household, a sister household.
Both me and my new housemate- Samantha have high expectations towards the new household.
We have always crave to have a closer relationship among the sisters.
And its seems like impossible at one time as we are geographically distanced from each other (and spiritually distanced as well?).
And that leads to the born of the idea of having a sister household.
However, I have to admit that it took me great courage to decide to step out from my comfort zone and that small room in Wangsa Maju.
i can still remember the disbelief look of both Jv and Ky when they step into my room.
Compare to our big room in Albany or Kensington, the room is like a store room by UK standard. hahaha...

Well, the small room has always been my refuge for the past 1++ year.
I am a person who enjoy the solitude,
enjoy being undisturbed and remain happily in my cocoon
some people might called it weird or introvert
However i am contented the way that is ~emotionally isolated.

ANYWAY, the point is to move out from that little world where i can freely do whatever i want (watch anime whole night, recording my own voice while playing guitar throughout the night etc.)without having to connect much to outer world i.e. my ex housemates (dont know them that close anyway, since we are all working adults with different circles of friends) is not an easy step.
I've told myself, if i decided to step out, then there will be a set of expectations from other people and myself.
Will i be able to give up so much of freedom which i have?
Can i stay isolated when i am expected to open my doors wide?

A lot of uncertainties there is.
However, i do felt that this is a right thing to do.
i dont have much time to give before i'm entering into the so called 'not-single-and-available' life.
why not taking the chance to enjoy the sisterhood when i still can.
I do miss those time when ky,jv and me live under one roof.
There is a lot of arguments, but alot of laughters as well.
The sweet and memorable time which we shared together are much valuable than anything else....

Anyway, life got so many things to offer
i will be be fool to not enjoy it to the fullest
C’eist la vie

最後一面

A song for the earth, written and sang by a couple contestants from the famous Taiwan superstar singing competition. What i like about the song is that there is another side of story apart from just the 'love the earth' awareness message, a very mystical love story. These is the author's own words from his blog....

古代有一個浪漫的故事
說著地跟天原本就是戀人
海卻在中間介入他們的情感
海的情緒洶湧常常跟地相爭與天的關係

And looking at the lyrics again...

看海跟天的曖昧 淹沒了這個世界 無力改變
從未融化的冰點 模糊大地的邊緣

我愛你怎麼會太晚才發現
曾經我們擁有美好的夏天
時間不會再給我多一次機會
向這片藍天說抱歉

what a sensual way to describe the issue of global warming, the melting of the iceberg and increment of the sea level. I really love their passion and spirit in song composing and singing. Hopefully she will win this long race and become the 3rd Taiwan Superstar.

Restless

Life isn't a bed of red roses, that is the only lesson which I’ve consistently learnt throughout the years. Living in this materialistic world where people struggling to earn more than everyone else is a sad sad truth that even myself couldnt seemed to run away from it.

I have a long long talk with Buu a few nights before, pouring all my heart out to him without holding back. Being together for 3 and half years now makes our bond strengthened like it was never before, we accept the strengths and the weaknesses in each other, i feel totally at ease when i am with him, i can see myself become a part of his family, i can see us sharing a life together, raising our kids and even to the extent of grow old together.

However, despite of all the good things that we achieved, i still questioned myself, and to him:

Did we bring out the best of each other? Have i become a better person for him throughout these years?

I wished I can firmly say yes without any hesitation. However it came quite clear to me, especially when my career start to build up in a steady pace, that material world seems to occupy most of my time and effort until the point that other things which supposed to be in higher priority in my life such as relationship, friendship, quality times etc. have become secondary to me. We lose our temper more easily nowadays, our topic is always dwells around work, friends, even politics but not much on personal thoughts and feelings. However, one thing which came clearest to me is that we did not spend time doing what we like to do anymore.

Why did I stop to play guitar nowadays?

Why did i fail to pour out my thoughts freely like i used to be?

Why did you stop to pursue your interest in photography?

Why did we stop backpack traveling and exploring new places?

......

Job was never the goal my life, it’s supposed to be the source of income which support me to do other more important things in my life. However, i am working my ass off everyday until i am too tired for other things. Asset is never my treasure in this world, however, having monthly commitments on car loans, insurance, mutual funds has made me poorer than I’ve never been before. I have no desire to pursue a managerial role or in the position of commanding and demanding, but now i am forced to do so cuz if not i will be eaten alive by the people who plays politics in the company.

Life aint easy, and i am feeling that i am losing something important here.

or.....
Should i just go easy with my conscience?

I need to slow down

It has been quite a while since the last time i'm writting in this blog, i realized that i've tendency to switch from my multiply blog to blogspot, and vice versa, and end up having my posts scattered here and there. However, one thing i love about blogging in blogspot is that i have more privacy as not many of my friends/mates knew the existence of this blog. As such i am free to write whatever i want, without much of 'censoring' or re-editing to cater to the liking of some people, who always ever ready to back stab me using the words which i've vented unintentionally out of frustration and anger during the heat of the moment.

Anyway, life has been progressing so much since the past one year that sometimes i felt like i've been consumed alive by its fast pace; its like being sucked into a black hole not knowing where am i and what awaits infront of me. Pieces of incidents flying passed through my eyes in such a speed that its likes watching broken sections of an incomplete movie. Although i am the main actress, however i find it hard to relate nor to comprehend it in a meaningful manner. The sense of purpose is not obvious as it used to be, and sometimes i cant even digest and reflect whether the actions which i have taken are trully edifying to my personal development or its just a waste of time.

To be truth, its scary. Being attached to so many responsibilities, financial commitment; to be given the right to makes informed decision in life; to be given a higher position to command others; to be expected to master in juggling with so many roles (christian, leader, daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend etc.). ALL of these are new to me, its overwhelming (not in a positive context).

I am scared that i might lost the first love, the simple me who appreciates that life is beautiful, that i have so much to give and so much to experience more. And i miss myself who used to be able to connect to people in such an effortless and natural gesture; who used to sing her heart out and able to relate herself to a song easily; who used to have so many wild thoughts and brave to put it into actions; who used to be able to paint out a picture of myself in future with such a clear direction.

I know i need to slow down, not doing things to finish and rush to the next thing but to enjoy in doing it in the first place. I dont want to end up like a hamster running on a treadmill, racing frantically towards the time, knowing it will lead to nowhere, accept round and round.

I need to slow down....

Denno Coil

I am a big fan of japanese anime. My days of anime addiction started from my Uni days, thanks to all my pirated anime supplier, owning a computer has totally change my world from reading 2D Manga to experiencing the euphoric pleasure of 3D digital world. Basically I spent a good half of my life on manga and anime. no denying.

Anyway, watched a great anime lately -Denno coil. Its a sci-fi story, but it was nicely integrated to the culture and life in Japanese society, it almost make me believe that this cyberworld portraited in the show really can came alive. IS THE FUTURE IS NOW? This question keep dwelling in my mind after i've finally finished the 26 episode anime. Its almost seems to be so natural that the digital wizardry and cyber gadgets (spectacles like computer) are a part of the Japanese kid's life. How much of wonders computer technology can do? i wonder. While some people simply rejecting the computers, the internet, and machines because they makes them look dumb; Another group of people become so obsessed and lose their identity as they eat, sleep, and shit together with their computer. Still, for the most part, everyone is clueless about these thing called computer and the virtual world.

Despite of its storyline and amazing plots, the reason which the anime fascinated me so much is that the show addressed some serious questions with respect to life, death, anger, afraid of being alone, of being hurt by those close to them, unwillingness to let go, war, God, love etc. through the eyes of children. Human interaction was shown at ground level, how it manifests itself at recognisable setting everyday. Sometimes, i just cant figure out how Japanese animators can relate these intense topics to be so close to Children heart. These was never shown in the classic American children cartoon such as 'Care bears', 'Thunder man' etc. which talks nothing but heroism and love.

It makes me wonder did i thought of those questions when i was in the age of Yuuko (at most 12 years old), i would say yes. I am scared of death when i was young, cuz the thought of seperating from my parents was unbearable. I wonder will God felt exhausted when there are so many people praying and requesting something from Him everyday. (side track: yes, when Yuuko acted as God to the cyber beings, she get sleepless night because of the tons of requests)

This makes me suddenly realized another truth, that these basic questions which we asked ourself since we are young are never answered even after 10-20 years. Maybe our life is a never ending cycle of trying to find out the answer to these questions.

Loves this verse from Mitsuo, the animator. "there will always be a distance between people, and even between things that seem within ones' reach. And that one must walk down a long, thin and winding road before they reach one's heart. There's tons of obstacles. It's in fact like the roads in towns of old" Quoted from Denno Coil

Anyway, back in the blogsphere. will update some of happening in my life soon. For the mean time, watch the anime if you have some time to kill and some tears to spare. come and copy from me.

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delete reply ahlok2003 wrote on May 29, '08 "Anyway, back in the blogsphere. will update some of happening in my life soon. " real life story attracts more attetion from me

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on May 30, '08 hahaha. real life story coming soon

delete reply susanjade2 wrote on Sep 25, '08 often tho'......it's not just the distance between things & people in our reach. It may be that even when such things & people are in our reach.....it's never the way you think it is....and ask yourself...is this it?!

delete reply susanjade2 wrote on Sep 25, '08 yes I'm back on the multiply chasing around with what's going on in people's minds & interests at heart....courtesy of the local library internet....

delete reply chinko wrote on Sep 29, '08 susan ong...i just realised tat ur profile pic is the pic that u scolded me for taking it u like it huh? u should pay me for it :))

edit delete reply atlantisian wrote on Nov 7, '08 hahaha. pay you with BRJ Nasi Lemak then, come back and claim from me....

delete reply chinko wrote on Nov 10, '08 atlantisian said hahaha. pay you with BRJ Nasi Lemak then, come back and claim from me.... talk big only..everytime i go back, i wanna eat brj but never get to cos everytime got some other ppl wanna eat something else...the closest thing that i got was black pepper kenny rogers chicken with their crappy rice. :((

delete reply nightscamp wrote on Sep 29, '08 My sister is into Anime but I've never really gotten into that... I only ever liked Samurai X... :) Batusai the Slasher!!

My Working Life after 4 months

This is the first time i've written such a boring post i guess, nothing on food, music, travel or PMS. I think i have lost my sensuality and sensibility since i am happily 'bercouple' for more than 2 years now. Personally i think, a person can only write heart achingly beautiful words when the person is either:

1. still in the sun-dont-shine-if-you-dont-smile 'madly in love' period, or

2. lonely and desperate for someone to love,or

3. just broke up with boyfriend/girlfriend,or

4. having a long distance relationship

Well, i am not in those categories anymore, which make me a fairly boring person (T.T). However, i've always wanted to write something which is related to my science background, but most of the time it came out to be quite.... BORING. anyway, i've decided to post it, so here come my boring post.

It has been 4 months since I've started to work and 7 months since i came back from UK. A lot of things had happened, but ironically, a lot of things actually didn't happened either. For instance, i am hopping to get a researcher post initially, but unfortunately (or luckily?!?) ended up in a post which i loathed and despised all my life- business development executive. To be truth until now, the word 'business' still reminds me of the salesman who used to knock on my door and hassle me persistently everyday, and the stereotypical business man who always carry business cards in their pocket (well, its kinda sounds like me now), so that they can 'networking' anytime and anywhere.

With all the misconception I've entered the so called business world. However, surprisingly it turns up to be quite interesting. I'm not sure whether it applies to all the industries or not, but for life sciences industry, business life is really challenging. Everyday is a challenging day for me as i have to speak different language with people of different level of professionalism such as government people, doctors and researchers. It requires much more than just fluent English and in depth science knowledge, i have to talk rocket sciences in a way which will not bore them but ignite their interest at the same time communicating the value proposition to them. I am not boasting when i say that part of my job is to 'educate' the 'conventional' researcher who sit comfortably in their office, where their world only revolves around publishing scientific paper. yes, of course its glorious to have your name printed on the journals. However, whats exactly is the value of the paper? so that other researchers can cite your work? what they don't see is that their research work of their blood and sweat can be more than just a academically recognition, it can be a useful application or a solution to a problem in real life which benefits the society and human well being in a bigger picture.

One thing which i have come to realization after 4 months of work, how irrelevant my master is when it comes to the real working environment.